You read that right not, “Who am I?”, but “Whose am I?” In other words, who do I belong to? It’s an easy answer for me, I am God’s. But does my life show that I belong to God? I know there are people who wouldn’t answer that in the same way I do and that is totally fine. No matter where you are on your faith journey, how would you answer the question? Fill in the blank, “I belong to _______________”.
A year ago, I would have answered that question in the same way, but how I was living my life told a different truth. I belonged to my job, what others thought of me, the image I wanted to portray to others so they would accept and love me, money, shopping (truth be told that hasn’t changed!). To sum it up, I belonged to “me”.
It would appear that when you have a major life change options are taken away, but in reality that is when the toughest choices are made. My ability to keep the pace of life I had was taken away. No matter what I did, I couldn’t fix me. I had the choice to stay stuck, get angry, feel sorry for myself OR take a hard look at who and what I wanted to belong to. If I belonged to my job and all it provided for me, well I might as well just curl up in a ball on the couch. I actually did that for a couple of months, and still do every now and then. If I belonged to God, I was His even though I couldn’t work. God’s love for me is more than what I can do and my love for God is now bigger than my circumstances. Given the opportunity in my circumstances to run to God or away, I chose to go to Him for the truth of who I was. In 2000, I faced similar circumstances, but chose the latter and I had about three dark years.
I belong to God like it says in 1 Peter 2:9 “But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.” NIV